So, its been a few days since my last post.  I think I really need to get on here daily, because it was like I was hit with a million thoughts about all the things going wrong in my life, and all of the things that could be going better...they were so incessant, that I spent 1 full day in between bouts of tears over the fact that I will be having to go back to work at some point...when just a few days earlier I was absolutely fine with the situation.  Why is it that one day you can be perfectly content with your life, and feel so blessed for what you have...and then the next day it feels like everything is falling apart??  Sometimes its like the world feels like its falling in on me, but I know that Im not the only one who feels this way sometimes.

I seems so easy to veer away from remembering what it important, and what I have to be so thankful for...the world has a way of making you feel like you need more, like what we have isn't good enough...and if only we had the next thing on our list accomplished...then we would be TRULY happy.   But that is a lie, we should be happy now...in this moment, with all that we have right now.  Dont get me wrong, it is important to strive for goals...and to be motivated for the future...and we should be excited for what is to come, however, it should not cloud our judgement into thinking that we wont be happy until we reach that next level.  The reality is, whatever level you get to, whatever stage you are at...there will ALWAYS be another step, another stage, another level...so that means if we are never happy until we get to the next point, we will never be satisfied.

I thought about it yesterday, there are so many things in my life to be thankful for.  My amazing, bright, beautiful little boy, who is so healthy and happy...my wonderful supportive husband.  We live in a free country, with so many opportunities.  We have clean water to drink.  My family is taken care of, we have everything we need.  My husband and I both have an education.  I have a great job to go back to, and I only have to work a few 1/2 days a week.  I have the capacity to love, and be loved by another.  I can see with my eyes, the beautiful sunsets that God gives us each night.  I can smell the beautiful flowers that my husband bought for me, and I can taste the delicious food that we can afford to buy, and cook ourselves.
I have the ability to have children, and create a family.  I have so many wonderful memories to think of, and share with my children.  I dont have to worry when I go to bed at night if we are safe or not.  I have this day, this moment to be happy with all that I have.

There are too many things in life that can steal our joy, God gave us GRACE, MERCY & PEACE.  He gives us the ability to keep our joy, even when we dont deserve it.  I know that whatever stage of life I am in, God with provide just enough of the three of those things to get me through.  Today I pray for peace in my heart, to accept the inevitable change that is life...and to be grateful for all the wonderful blessings in my life today.